Geu Gut Man Eun (Just This)
I still cant believe myself if Im in a world without you
Everything about me is in sadness because nothing matters anymore
If only I can turn back time
Then I wouldn't have let you go
After that, I couldnt promise anything
But if you keep going away farther from me, what can I do?
Maybe I wanted to believe that you knew how I felt
When time passes, you will smile and tell me that you were sorry
Now I will erase all of my sadness through my happy memories
As I watch over you who will always live in me,
I will wait for you who will return someday
If only I can turn back time
Then I wouldn't have let you go
After that, I couldnt promise anything
But if you keep going away farther from me, what can I do?
Maybe I wanted to believe that you knew how I felt
When time passes, you will smile and tell me that you were sorry
Now I will erase all of my sadness through my happy memories
As I watch over you who will always live in me,
I will wait for you who will return someday
translation by: eebyul (also credit: aheeyah.com)
This song totally represents my feelings now.
Damn emo. Lost my love.
A foresight of losing WCG CnC3, been on a losing streak online.
No wonder some people say its a lot better to be dead. -_- Wow. Quite true, for now.
Friday, July 25, 2008
Thursday, July 24, 2008
A deep scar in the heart waiting to be healed...
Damn, I miss her already... why did everything happened this way? Whyyy..~~~
Argh. Just hope I can get over everything quickly and see her again.
Seriously, I just think if I didn't appear in her life, probably everything could be better... but.. argh.. -_- DAMNIT /bangwall
Couldn't sleep somehow. Was training Cnc3, found a new strat, but I don't think it is enough to win me the WCG...
Damn, I miss her already... why did everything happened this way? Whyyy..~~~
Argh. Just hope I can get over everything quickly and see her again.
Seriously, I just think if I didn't appear in her life, probably everything could be better... but.. argh.. -_- DAMNIT /bangwall
Couldn't sleep somehow. Was training Cnc3, found a new strat, but I don't think it is enough to win me the WCG...
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Thursday, July 10, 2008
Alright, some updates
Woke up like 3pm today? Receive news if I do not turn up for meetings and such, GG to me in Major Project! D= Alright, I'll make an effort.
Next, I passed my FTT! Woo, one time pass. But how? Simple: half of my questions were from the BTT -.- So..good luck to me in getting a driving license! Planning to get before end of this year.
Uh..now I'm training for CnC3, thanks to Yan Hao who has officially replaced Eugene. -.- I still can't win him. Gee. Gdluck to me then.
Alright, time to sleep. Gdnight
Woke up like 3pm today? Receive news if I do not turn up for meetings and such, GG to me in Major Project! D= Alright, I'll make an effort.
Next, I passed my FTT! Woo, one time pass. But how? Simple: half of my questions were from the BTT -.- So..good luck to me in getting a driving license! Planning to get before end of this year.
Uh..now I'm training for CnC3, thanks to Yan Hao who has officially replaced Eugene. -.- I still can't win him. Gee. Gdluck to me then.
Alright, time to sleep. Gdnight
Friday, July 04, 2008
For some reason, I can't sleep. /enjoysacupofhotMilo
Probably, its due to too much thinking of...stuff. Yeah, haven't been posting stuff for a while. Laziness you see.
First off my brain, studies and school. Major Project seems difficult yet do-able. Team Leader position gets thrown to me, once again for 2 years running. GADS, ONGD, MGPG, BSCG. Give me a break. As most of you should know by now, I'm working with Mario, Gin Yan and Ge Min for this July - September I think, on this peripheral named Novint Falcon, google it if you must.
School, on the other hand, screws us up like I-don't-know-how-to-describe-it. NAPFA tomorrow though announced like 2 months ago yet giving us workload and _ NIGHT _ lessons for FOUR consecutive nights per week. Wow? Keeping ourselves fit is already difficult enough, let alone training for NAPFA. Looks like a re-take for me, I want a damn Gold award and I CAN GET IT IF NOT FOR MY PULL-UPS.
IITSC, was another issue. That once greatly respected club has gone. Jonathan Lou did great at 06/07 Week Zero. This '08 Week Zero, you say? Under Chai Yuan Long. Wuh? Initially during the elections, I thought, "Huh? Who's this being able to overpower Darren in popularity?" Wow? Apparently, the situation of the club speaks for itself.
Falling apart it may not seem on the surface, but honestly, beat Business school for Regatta in 09 Week Zero? "Dream on" is what I can say. As I have told Coburn, I could jolly well tell EVERY SINGLE PERSON in IITSC, what are you joining the club for as a Main Comm, or even as a Sub Comm. To have fun? Seriously, first thing in my mind: Service. I may not have gone for the events by Sub Comm, but if I do, I don't go for the sake of fun.
Week Zero '08 failed, YES, I MEANT IT IN MY OWN BIASED VIEWS, it failed miserably, and if IITSC decides to continue with their so-called "traditions" they can forget about even beating Design or Engineering. It is only the sense of regret I had in Week Zero '08. Unless the situation improve, I would avoid TBC and OLTC '08/09.
Alright, /calmsdown.
Just to add on: Recently, an email asking if Boss/Joshua Liew could send a team of CS 1.6/DotA players from the "gaming club" for a NUS competition. Wow, we might be a gaming club (once, I would say) but do we look like we play competitively? Oh, maybe we would if the club had the motivation in the first place, unfortunately not, otherwise TP-Hybrids would have made a name in WCG at least already, like Team RP. Seriously, if TP didn't had GET (or if I foresaw the IIT School screwing us up), I would have just gone to RP for the gaming CCA, taking Electronics in the Engineering field.
Alright, enough of the stupid school ranting.. Next, my goals. Though I'm sure everyone wants to excel in something, I never seem to excel in anything, probably being a jack-of-all-trade which some friends call me that, but that isn't what I really want.
My goals/dreams might seemed big, its recognition I want actually, even my cousin Randy could make out in the gaming world with Team TitaNs, I don't see why can't I? It is just that playing CnC3 and winning people like Ravana and echo_elite isn't really possible at my level of gameplay, since I can't even beat Ayane06 in TNP, or so it seems to me.
A wake-up call by Shawn, breaking my winning streak to like 5 losses? Wow. Nicely done. Drummania/Guitar Freaks/DDR/Beatmania IIDX? I'm like waaaaaay far away from the "Red Zone" which is like normal to those guys in CCK/DG Zone X, Bugis Virtualand, etc.(which means the Japanese pros aka the Tatsujins are EVEN further).
I don't know if I should invest on Guitar Heroes since its the only rhythm game on WCG. Maybe I should get the Orange Box and join Yanhao in TF2, if he's still gonna play.
Musical-wise, my drumming is going well, but drumming as a free-lance career seems fruitless. Adding on that I can't play the guitar for nuts. Vocals? My Sound Design module just tells me that I sounded like some sissy over the microphone.
FINALLY, just take a look at my wish-list, you know I have like at least two thousand dollars worth of items that I plan to get, and money is always my first problem. I have yet to account for money that I want/need/wish/plan to spend on my girlfriend, she comes first after all these. How I wish I had tons of money right now, not typing this post on my frigging M9V notebook but on a badass high-end PC or my dream gaming-spec notebook or the Macbook.
Now that these has come off my mind, I guess I'll go play some CnC3 to train up a lil'. I think I would have broken down if Florence isn't my girlfriend to be here to provide emotional support to me. My family? I wouldn't want to give them more headaches.
Hopefully something earth-shaking will happen soon. Life's been bland. /walksoff
Probably, its due to too much thinking of...stuff. Yeah, haven't been posting stuff for a while. Laziness you see.
First off my brain, studies and school. Major Project seems difficult yet do-able. Team Leader position gets thrown to me, once again for 2 years running. GADS, ONGD, MGPG, BSCG. Give me a break. As most of you should know by now, I'm working with Mario, Gin Yan and Ge Min for this July - September I think, on this peripheral named Novint Falcon, google it if you must.
School, on the other hand, screws us up like I-don't-know-how-to-describe-it. NAPFA tomorrow though announced like 2 months ago yet giving us workload and _ NIGHT _ lessons for FOUR consecutive nights per week. Wow? Keeping ourselves fit is already difficult enough, let alone training for NAPFA. Looks like a re-take for me, I want a damn Gold award and I CAN GET IT IF NOT FOR MY PULL-UPS.
IITSC, was another issue. That once greatly respected club has gone. Jonathan Lou did great at 06/07 Week Zero. This '08 Week Zero, you say? Under Chai Yuan Long. Wuh? Initially during the elections, I thought, "Huh? Who's this being able to overpower Darren in popularity?" Wow? Apparently, the situation of the club speaks for itself.
Falling apart it may not seem on the surface, but honestly, beat Business school for Regatta in 09 Week Zero? "Dream on" is what I can say. As I have told Coburn, I could jolly well tell EVERY SINGLE PERSON in IITSC, what are you joining the club for as a Main Comm, or even as a Sub Comm. To have fun? Seriously, first thing in my mind: Service. I may not have gone for the events by Sub Comm, but if I do, I don't go for the sake of fun.
Week Zero '08 failed, YES, I MEANT IT IN MY OWN BIASED VIEWS, it failed miserably, and if IITSC decides to continue with their so-called "traditions" they can forget about even beating Design or Engineering. It is only the sense of regret I had in Week Zero '08. Unless the situation improve, I would avoid TBC and OLTC '08/09.
Alright, /calmsdown.
Just to add on: Recently, an email asking if Boss/Joshua Liew could send a team of CS 1.6/DotA players from the "gaming club" for a NUS competition. Wow, we might be a gaming club (once, I would say) but do we look like we play competitively? Oh, maybe we would if the club had the motivation in the first place, unfortunately not, otherwise TP-Hybrids would have made a name in WCG at least already, like Team RP. Seriously, if TP didn't had GET (or if I foresaw the IIT School screwing us up), I would have just gone to RP for the gaming CCA, taking Electronics in the Engineering field.
Alright, enough of the stupid school ranting.. Next, my goals. Though I'm sure everyone wants to excel in something, I never seem to excel in anything, probably being a jack-of-all-trade which some friends call me that, but that isn't what I really want.
My goals/dreams might seemed big, its recognition I want actually, even my cousin Randy could make out in the gaming world with Team TitaNs, I don't see why can't I? It is just that playing CnC3 and winning people like Ravana and echo_elite isn't really possible at my level of gameplay, since I can't even beat Ayane06 in TNP, or so it seems to me.
A wake-up call by Shawn, breaking my winning streak to like 5 losses? Wow. Nicely done. Drummania/Guitar Freaks/DDR/Beatmania IIDX? I'm like waaaaaay far away from the "Red Zone" which is like normal to those guys in CCK/DG Zone X, Bugis Virtualand, etc.(which means the Japanese pros aka the Tatsujins are EVEN further).
I don't know if I should invest on Guitar Heroes since its the only rhythm game on WCG. Maybe I should get the Orange Box and join Yanhao in TF2, if he's still gonna play.
Musical-wise, my drumming is going well, but drumming as a free-lance career seems fruitless. Adding on that I can't play the guitar for nuts. Vocals? My Sound Design module just tells me that I sounded like some sissy over the microphone.
FINALLY, just take a look at my wish-list, you know I have like at least two thousand dollars worth of items that I plan to get, and money is always my first problem. I have yet to account for money that I want/need/wish/plan to spend on my girlfriend, she comes first after all these. How I wish I had tons of money right now, not typing this post on my frigging M9V notebook but on a badass high-end PC or my dream gaming-spec notebook or the Macbook.
Now that these has come off my mind, I guess I'll go play some CnC3 to train up a lil'. I think I would have broken down if Florence isn't my girlfriend to be here to provide emotional support to me. My family? I wouldn't want to give them more headaches.
Hopefully something earth-shaking will happen soon. Life's been bland. /walksoff