GADS and IN3D journal after this.. AHHH...brain's cracking...
kk craps later. Was working the weekends, so pretty worn out plus lack of time for homeworks, I guess. Yeah. Bought a new towel and Gatsby Moving Rubber wax from Watsons. The wax was pretty interesting, hopefully I can achieve the style tomorrow (I keep failing to style my hair zzz) Shall do sales report tomorrow too...duhhh..
Anyways, a random ranting from me, skip it if you hate emo whinings from me. lol.
Though I never felt so free ever since the one and a half year relationship, the missing gap in my heart will always be there, waiting for someone to fill it. But when I give a damn thought about it, who will close that gap again and wait for me to open it back or will she close it permanently? I duno.
Giving this more thoughts, I might think relationship is something that I wouldn't want in the near future, I learnt that it will take away half of my time and energy or rather, my life. Who knows if it was more?
Being a bachelor seemed great. I had control in everything I do, not needing to worry about anything I would say trivial, like failing to make a phone call at night and worry about a quarrel the next morning, but that missing feeling in my heart just messed up my emotions somehow. Yeah, just hope I could close the gap with ignorance. Hurting another girl again isn't something the Pussy Jem would wanna do.
Kk I think I stop here, too much work ahead. Ciaos.
Saturday, May 12, 2007
Today was a great day with a bad start somehow. lol
I woke up like 7.30 this morning and somehow delayed my way through until like 8? Ended up waiting for bus until 8.30 or so, decided to take a cab and ignore the buses. I skipped 2 966s which is like 30 mins and I'm still not on a cab. See my hp time and its 9am I decide to skip Jap tutorial. Went to sch the normal way and reached at around 10. Saw a group of FBI freshies at concourse, though somehow they didn't notice me. My cap does help somehow. Haha.
After reaching sch at 10, confirming stuff with Boss, I went off to Tampines Interchange to get a large mango cake from Bengawan Solo that cost $30 by using Boss's vouchers. Took it back to school and thanks to that cake, my freshies saw me . lol.
After that, had lunch with half of my classmates at Business canteen. Slacked abit in the clubroom by playing the Wii and some castle war and cs before DSAG.
DSAG was kinda boring thanks to the fact that I've done my practicals early, after confirming the only "error" I had in my program, I went to play games like o2mania and Pikachu Volleyball! lOlx. Guide Mario and one of my female malay tutorial classmate through the session.
Back to lab for some Wesley 19th birthday bash of Taupok and Head-first binning before the Jap Cultural Group came to pulled "our army" of gamers with "their army" to a PS3 competition of Resistance. 9 of us went, namely Daorong, Mario, Ivan, Mad, Delvin, Wesley, Zech, Ken and myself. Leon came along with us too.
We went separately. I was with Zech, who pinched Sijie face(as expected, since Mario does the same) like he never pinched it before, and a wrestling/pinching match between him and Melvin. I stood neutral, one was a fellow OL, another's a classmate. Gee...
Anyways, went there. Got pwned, I went first for a game that I've yet to experience the gameplay(Plus the irritating inverted-Y control, meaning when I put the analog stick down, the camera goes up. I'm not used to it.). Things like switch weapon and greanades was alien to me. Anyways, the rest ended same since there was experienced players there except Ken(amazingly), Mad and Zech. Oh yeah, the reason Ken got through, was that he was damn lucky to get placed together with a total amateur to FPS who can't shoot nor evade bullets.
Had pizza and cake. I set up a "W" for Wesley, but since we didn't celebrate the birthday properly with Maddy, it was a double birthday celebration. Invert the W and you get a M. lol. Sang the loudest birthday song we could have sang in english, chinese, and the BLAH BLAH language which goes:
Blah blah blah blah blah~
Blah blah blah blah blah~
Blah blah blah blah blah blah~
Blah blah blah blah blah~
After the whole event(and a complimentary gift of a Sony PlayStation trademarked cup), around 9.30 I went to Tamp mall with Mario. Companied him since he had to wait for his gf to knock off from work and I'm like, damn nuah + bored. Slacked at Macs until 10:50. Went up to his gf working place outside to wait. End up his gf went to go with her friends for supper I think, so he had to go back home alone. Initially he wanted to send her home. Haha..nvm, at least I saw the guilt in his gf. Went to take 23 to Kallang Basin Swimming Complex bus stop for a 966, slept on the bus until the bus stop when I woke up to be surprised that I had reached and quickly alighted. lOlx. But found out it was already 11.50 =_= missed the 966, walked further in to catch a cab that cost me $12. Ahh.. its okay..
Now, I kinda feel like ranting like a whiner/emo/idiot. But running outta energy already. Kinda lot of things in my mind really. Maybe some other day. Hm..I guess thats all. See ya
I woke up like 7.30 this morning and somehow delayed my way through until like 8? Ended up waiting for bus until 8.30 or so, decided to take a cab and ignore the buses. I skipped 2 966s which is like 30 mins and I'm still not on a cab. See my hp time and its 9am I decide to skip Jap tutorial. Went to sch the normal way and reached at around 10. Saw a group of FBI freshies at concourse, though somehow they didn't notice me. My cap does help somehow. Haha.
After reaching sch at 10, confirming stuff with Boss, I went off to Tampines Interchange to get a large mango cake from Bengawan Solo that cost $30 by using Boss's vouchers. Took it back to school and thanks to that cake, my freshies saw me . lol.
After that, had lunch with half of my classmates at Business canteen. Slacked abit in the clubroom by playing the Wii and some castle war and cs before DSAG.
DSAG was kinda boring thanks to the fact that I've done my practicals early, after confirming the only "error" I had in my program, I went to play games like o2mania and Pikachu Volleyball! lOlx. Guide Mario and one of my female malay tutorial classmate through the session.
Back to lab for some Wesley 19th birthday bash of Taupok and Head-first binning before the Jap Cultural Group came to pulled "our army" of gamers with "their army" to a PS3 competition of Resistance. 9 of us went, namely Daorong, Mario, Ivan, Mad, Delvin, Wesley, Zech, Ken and myself. Leon came along with us too.
We went separately. I was with Zech, who pinched Sijie face(as expected, since Mario does the same) like he never pinched it before, and a wrestling/pinching match between him and Melvin. I stood neutral, one was a fellow OL, another's a classmate. Gee...
Anyways, went there. Got pwned, I went first for a game that I've yet to experience the gameplay(Plus the irritating inverted-Y control, meaning when I put the analog stick down, the camera goes up. I'm not used to it.). Things like switch weapon and greanades was alien to me. Anyways, the rest ended same since there was experienced players there except Ken(amazingly), Mad and Zech. Oh yeah, the reason Ken got through, was that he was damn lucky to get placed together with a total amateur to FPS who can't shoot nor evade bullets.
Had pizza and cake. I set up a "W" for Wesley, but since we didn't celebrate the birthday properly with Maddy, it was a double birthday celebration. Invert the W and you get a M. lol. Sang the loudest birthday song we could have sang in english, chinese, and the BLAH BLAH language which goes:
Blah blah blah blah blah~
Blah blah blah blah blah~
Blah blah blah blah blah blah~
Blah blah blah blah blah~
After the whole event(and a complimentary gift of a Sony PlayStation trademarked cup), around 9.30 I went to Tamp mall with Mario. Companied him since he had to wait for his gf to knock off from work and I'm like, damn nuah + bored. Slacked at Macs until 10:50. Went up to his gf working place outside to wait. End up his gf went to go with her friends for supper I think, so he had to go back home alone. Initially he wanted to send her home. Haha..nvm, at least I saw the guilt in his gf. Went to take 23 to Kallang Basin Swimming Complex bus stop for a 966, slept on the bus until the bus stop when I woke up to be surprised that I had reached and quickly alighted. lOlx. But found out it was already 11.50 =_= missed the 966, walked further in to catch a cab that cost me $12. Ahh.. its okay..
Now, I kinda feel like ranting like a whiner/emo/idiot. But running outta energy already. Kinda lot of things in my mind really. Maybe some other day. Hm..I guess thats all. See ya
Thursday, May 10, 2007
Decided to write this before sleeping, was quite busy this 2 days, with many assignments to settle.
Okay, after I dyed my hair silver, I had friends either saying I look old, or it look great. =/ Oh well. Lol.
Today had CMSK presentation, was ALRIGHT. My idea was supposed to be questioned by Wesley, but instead he, together with the whole class, decided to bombard Ken's "SafeBand" idea, which Ivan and I expected, since we already knew his idea had many loopholes. IN3D as usual, except I didn't did 3D modelling but sketching of my character. A Macross Battloid Valkyrie for those who knows. I will post the pics if anyone's curious what it is.
After lessons, I went to Century Square with Mario(who was suppose to meet his gf earlier) where we went to our own destination. I went up to the Hobby Point to see the Macross model kits they had, sadly they weren't what I wanted. So now I'm stuck with just pictures to model my character.
Jap tutorial tomorrow at 9am..going to sleep now. Gd night.
Okay, after I dyed my hair silver, I had friends either saying I look old, or it look great. =/ Oh well. Lol.
Today had CMSK presentation, was ALRIGHT. My idea was supposed to be questioned by Wesley, but instead he, together with the whole class, decided to bombard Ken's "SafeBand" idea, which Ivan and I expected, since we already knew his idea had many loopholes. IN3D as usual, except I didn't did 3D modelling but sketching of my character. A Macross Battloid Valkyrie for those who knows. I will post the pics if anyone's curious what it is.
After lessons, I went to Century Square with Mario(who was suppose to meet his gf earlier) where we went to our own destination. I went up to the Hobby Point to see the Macross model kits they had, sadly they weren't what I wanted. So now I'm stuck with just pictures to model my character.
Jap tutorial tomorrow at 9am..going to sleep now. Gd night.
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
Going to make a short entry before my father comes home and starts the grumblings again.
Today was a short day, as usual, the 2 thirds of the class are down with some illness. Only Daorong, Coburn, Mario, Ginyan and myself is still standing. DSAG tutorial and practicals are really just...too simple somehow, I've finished them in 1-2 hours, except that one of my practicals have some errors which I'll leave it 'til the lab session.
Oh yeah, revenge's damn sweet too. Knifed that fucking Ken two times today. Total humilitation back for him! MUAHAHAHA.
Went for drum course, then had Teppan-yaki for dinner before going home. Did some homework and now I'm going to sleep. See ya.
Today was a short day, as usual, the 2 thirds of the class are down with some illness. Only Daorong, Coburn, Mario, Ginyan and myself is still standing. DSAG tutorial and practicals are really just...too simple somehow, I've finished them in 1-2 hours, except that one of my practicals have some errors which I'll leave it 'til the lab session.
Oh yeah, revenge's damn sweet too. Knifed that fucking Ken two times today. Total humilitation back for him! MUAHAHAHA.
Went for drum course, then had Teppan-yaki for dinner before going home. Did some homework and now I'm going to sleep. See ya.
Damn sianz..
FUCKING PISSED OFF WITH MY FATHER. I DO WHAT ALSO MUST SAY SOMETHING. I NEVER SO PISSED OFF 'TIL I PLUG MY EARPHONES INTO MY EARS TO AVOID LISTENING TO HIS HALF-ASSED GRUMBLES. I'M GOING TO BE FUCKING 18 ALREADY AND HE'S STILL TREATING ME LIKE A 3 YEAR OLD KID? REALLY WAN FORCE ME TO LEAVE HOME THEN SONG IZIT..ZZZ... DAMN FUCKED UP.....
Okay, what happened actually, I went to dye my hair ash colour, with a $75 I worked myself. And now he's like saying as though I'm taking money from him to get the hair colour. wtf? I taking food and drum course money for fucking goodness sake. Then next he say wad I go outside see if anyone will ask me which gang I'm from. So you mean all the guys in Visual Kei all have gangs? So seriously pissed off.
Argh. Show you guys how its like before I stop blogging. TOTALLY KILLED MY APPETITE. I didn't eat dinner lor .. zzzz..... Shall sleep asap.
Sunday, May 06, 2007
Yeah..just came back from the INTSC Sentosa Outing. Was the best experience ever for me at the beach. With all the stuff going on, like dunking people into the water, somersaulting, and even doing gay-like forfeits for games. Oh yeah, Marcus, happy birthday again even if you're not gonna see this.
So, we left the beach at around 7 after everyone's done showering and some relaxing. Was quite sunburnt and bruised all over my body, thanks to the above actions, haha, but seriously, they don't hurt, it's what I call "the sunburns and bruises of fun".
Went back to Vivocity where all of us have dinner together by tapao-ing food to the open space at level 3 to eat together. Guowei, Samuel and me decided to ask Mario who was MIA for Sentosa out to eat at Marche, so we didn't really eat with the rest.
Chilled out abit until he arrive with the rest, went to eat Marche and was quite disappointed. $14 for a dinner that taste alright, but with service not up to my expectations and my expectation of service standards are really low as I know how difficult it is in this job.
It happened like this, I asked for a Mushroom and Cheese Crepe, the chef went on to make a Ham and Cheese Crepe. Ahh..whatever. Same thing when I ordered an Iced Latte, the pantry staff was trying to tell me something about the sugar, but I didn't catch it properly and she just went off. Oh well, I shouldn't be really asking much for a restaurant that charges only 1% for the service charge. Bah, seriously, somehow I just feel the staff of Fast Food restaurants was better than them in terms of the service.
After dinner, went to chill abit again with the rest before heading back. Was kinda emo-ing on the bus. Thinking hell lot of damn stupid stuffs about myself. Still feeling emo somehow, just hope this feeling will go off tomorrow. I don't want to drag everyone down.
Alright, I gotta go get my contact lenses out and drop "dead" on the bed soon. See ya.
(PS: I planned to get my hair colour on Tuesday morning.)
So, we left the beach at around 7 after everyone's done showering and some relaxing. Was quite sunburnt and bruised all over my body, thanks to the above actions, haha, but seriously, they don't hurt, it's what I call "the sunburns and bruises of fun".
Went back to Vivocity where all of us have dinner together by tapao-ing food to the open space at level 3 to eat together. Guowei, Samuel and me decided to ask Mario who was MIA for Sentosa out to eat at Marche, so we didn't really eat with the rest.
Chilled out abit until he arrive with the rest, went to eat Marche and was quite disappointed. $14 for a dinner that taste alright, but with service not up to my expectations and my expectation of service standards are really low as I know how difficult it is in this job.
It happened like this, I asked for a Mushroom and Cheese Crepe, the chef went on to make a Ham and Cheese Crepe. Ahh..whatever. Same thing when I ordered an Iced Latte, the pantry staff was trying to tell me something about the sugar, but I didn't catch it properly and she just went off. Oh well, I shouldn't be really asking much for a restaurant that charges only 1% for the service charge. Bah, seriously, somehow I just feel the staff of Fast Food restaurants was better than them in terms of the service.
After dinner, went to chill abit again with the rest before heading back. Was kinda emo-ing on the bus. Thinking hell lot of damn stupid stuffs about myself. Still feeling emo somehow, just hope this feeling will go off tomorrow. I don't want to drag everyone down.
Alright, I gotta go get my contact lenses out and drop "dead" on the bed soon. See ya.
(PS: I planned to get my hair colour on Tuesday morning.)
Okay..going to do my journal writing later for GADS (Game Design for those who don't know) after this entry.
Went to work today, took the bus with my mom. Hmm..reached at 1.30pm. Slogged through the day like normal. Then when I knocked off, I went to buy a mini-medibox and the shampoo and conditioner for coloured hair which the brand I'm promoting, a step to keep my silver hair last longer. Planning to get a brown Gatsby temporary colour hair spray, but I didn't bring enough, so I shall buy some other day. Went home on a crowded 190, as usual.
Called my hairstylist up, was told that the colouring can only be done on Monday night, argh. Oh.. and I just realized awhile ago that Monday was Maddy's birthday, and C152, including Boss, is planning to watch Spiderman 3 on that day. Gee..hope I can get my hair coloured on Tuesday morning(I better wake up early..).
Changed my ear studs after the call. The piercings are pretty much healed already, just need to keep something inside only I guess.. Yeah...Gonna get new ear accessories when I can find the ones I want.
Okay I guess thats all. Time for journal and music. Ciaos.
Went to work today, took the bus with my mom. Hmm..reached at 1.30pm. Slogged through the day like normal. Then when I knocked off, I went to buy a mini-medibox and the shampoo and conditioner for coloured hair which the brand I'm promoting, a step to keep my silver hair last longer. Planning to get a brown Gatsby temporary colour hair spray, but I didn't bring enough, so I shall buy some other day. Went home on a crowded 190, as usual.
Called my hairstylist up, was told that the colouring can only be done on Monday night, argh. Oh.. and I just realized awhile ago that Monday was Maddy's birthday, and C152, including Boss, is planning to watch Spiderman 3 on that day. Gee..hope I can get my hair coloured on Tuesday morning(I better wake up early..).
Changed my ear studs after the call. The piercings are pretty much healed already, just need to keep something inside only I guess.. Yeah...Gonna get new ear accessories when I can find the ones I want.
Okay I guess thats all. Time for journal and music. Ciaos.